FEAR

So well, this is the last 2 month of the year 2011.

Time flied. It's seriously like flying.

This is the month of November, December is coming, Christmas is coming!

Since from September I never stop mentioning Christmas is coming and everyone is like what?

It's still so long to go, you crazy about Christmas!

So it's not joking now, Christmas is seriously coming. :D

So well, I guess October is an average month for me.

Good yet bad. What seriously bad was I had met an accident just few days ago,  which is the last day of October, 311011.

and this is not a small matter, it is very serious for me. I am lost.

I can't really explain how I actually felt. The obvious word to be know is, FEAR.

I was so scared.  

I used to park my car at Cheras and my classmates April and Janice will pick me up.

So on Monday, I drove myself to Uni after the Deepavali holiday week.

and everything seems going very good and smooth on the first schooling day,

so I drove myself back after done with assignment discussion and the sky started to rain.

and yes I drove off from Taylor's as the usual speed I used to it, and I never realized it's raining day.

So yes, the accident happened just right opposite Taylor's.

Thanks God there were no cars behind or beside me because that is a dangerous corner.

I might injured or die if , hmmm I just can't imagine.

and everyone is like coming to me, People, Police, JPJ, Insurance Claim, bengkel, repairer.

So you know this is not a small accident or matter.

Btw, wanted to thanks everyone who came to help. Appreciated.

I Scared. 

I awake from fear in the midnight. My heart was beating really fast.

I felt so sorry. I felt so sorry to mum and dad. I am really sorry to made them worried.

I just can't really take it on the next 2 days. Until today, I guess better?

I had 1 meal per day in 3 days. and I had only 1 layer out of 3 layers pancake for today.

This is not me. Seriously not me. 

This accident affected me quite a lot, like I am going to lost, for 4 days.

and I felt really touch for people who ever concerned. 

It's like I saw who is the true friend come to you when you need. Even by asking how are you. Appreciated.

and yes I tried to hot and warm my cold blooded to you after the accident.

It's like I should't be so cruel to people who don't deserve it after I met the accident.

Everything is still going as usual, but my fear is still with me.

No one know what is your feeling, only when you experience it.

God are always be apart with me. Stay and upon to God. Thanks God.

Elissa,